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Where was i ... oh yeah "for 30 years". My children grew up, moved out (except for the youngest)i was left with this man and no one to take the attention away. The one left at home was 18 and was basically on her own. I found myself asking "NOW WHAT?" alot of the time. All we had was comfort -

I had a full time job away from the home which i enjoyed (still do) but i work in a college environment with people in their 30's. I am happy to call them my friends but they certainly didnt understand what i was feeling. I turned to my computer and facebook to meet up with friends my own age, some i grew up with, others i have known and moved away from. I think i neglicted to say that because i was so unhappy i couldnt stand to see anyone else happy - I pushed many of my friends away for that reason. Anyhow... facebook is a great tool to catch up with people, and to meet new friends.

I had been on facebook for about 6 months really enjoying conversations with old friends. When while online one day in july i went to a friends page and down in the lefthand corner of the page was Stans name. My heart began thumping, palms sweaty, breathing rapid ... you get the picture. Should I friend request him? should I not? I thought what the heck I will - maybe he wont even accept the request. Well, within 24 hours he accepted. Okay... well maybe that will be that I can see what is going on in his life and him with me. Purely platonic! No harm no foul! right? Wrong!

One day not long after that initial contact we were both on at the same time and opened a chat. We found ourselves talking everyday very frequently throughout the day. I would wake up in the middle of the night to see if he posted a message and more times then not there was one. Then he went on a vacation in August for a week ---no internet--- When he returned we realized that this was much more than a deep friendship. Stan went out that night to a bar (not common practice for him) because all he did was think of me. When he got home his message left in the middle of the night was a simple one "I am falling in love with you".

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